Making peace with the body I have

Jummy and Sayo in a swimming pool.

Text from Ves: You guys coming over for a swim today? We can bbq.
Me (to nobody): *Excited squeal*
Also me: Mentally cancels previous plans to run errands and organize my closet. Sends Sayo a text to say (all casual-like) “Oh Ves just asked if we wanted to come for bbq and a swim” along with the guilty face emoji (because the night before I told him about my plans to stay home and get things done!).
Sayo: Yeah, we can go if u like.
Me (to Ves): Yes please! So excited; going to look for my swimsuit now.

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Gaining weight

How do you keep your

Several months ago on my way home from work, I pondered what it would be like to wear a thin suit. They have fat suits that can turn a 140lb person into a sumo wrestler; imagine if stuffing myself into a super-stretchy suit and zipping it up could make me 140lbs! While it would be great to wear cute clothes, I’m more interested in how my experience of the world would change if I had such a different body. Would I be more confident? Would I do more daring things as a result? I don’t know, but if there was an instant way to find out, I’d sign up for it. I’m fascinated by the mental process of weight loss, especially if one has a lot of weight to lose. Continue reading